Hindsight is 2020..
but why look back when you can look forward. I look back and think was it better to have waited a year? It made/makes more sense. But I have come to the conclusion that experiences and decisions that are worthwhile are the ones that don’t make any sense…. rather, they are decisions you make, because… because it was right because it is IS right…. because it comes from a deeper place: your heart
I read a book called “The Crossroads of Choose and Must: Find and Follow Your Passion”. What we choose because it “makes sense”. What we must do because it is a calling. Upon reflection, I realized that calling hardly ever make sense, are not practical, and require a hell of a lot of risk and courage.
As of late, I have felt uneasy. I started to think that maybe I had made the wrong decision, that I probably should have waited a year in coming to Madrid. It’s easy to feel uncertain, when things are going perfectly and you can see clearly behind you through the rear view mirror of life. “I should have” becomes a default. It requires mental effort to remind yourself that it’s all part of the process.
The point is, I HAD to come to my Madrid. I felt it in my core. I must make the move. And I am most grateful for it. Would it have made more sense financially, during a pandemic, everything to have waited one more year? Sure. But it made 0 sense for my soul. And I was not willing to compromise that. I am grateful to the friends I have made, and the experiences that I have had, that have all culminated in this one magical city called Madrid. And because of it, Madrid, I am better for it.
That is 2020 vision for you…